Days 12 & 13 - Nearly 50%

I'm noticing my upper half more... more muscle, more strength, more stamina, more oxygen, more focus, more smiles. I'm noticing less on my bottom half. Less... well... just less. Anyone outside of this body won't notice, but I do. I notice my pants are a little more comfortable. I notice a flatter belly. It's really all that's noticeable, but it's alot to me, because that's not what this is about. This is about doing the best I can do for myself for 30 days, and seeing the effects, the "by-product" of this time.

I notice that my Yoga practice isn't about what it was the first couple of years... the hard effort, or the heavy breathing, or the racing heart, or the dripping sweat anymore... it's about the alignment, the balance, the focus, the strength, the stillness. It's about focusing on my breathing and the way my body moves with THAT, rather than how my breathing reacts to how I move my body. Everything has a balance and a harmony to be reached... everything. And I'm beginning to understand that, after all this time. But I'm only beginning, and this is STILL only a tiny speck of what I can realize in myself.

I'll be 42 years old this summer. I love it. I love being over 40. I love having the choice to live well, then doing it. I love looking back at all the times I made excuses not to do something, then after a little time passes, realizing that if I had just "Shown Up", it would have been accomplished. Not because I didn't do them, but because it teaches me to simply do it now, and breathe in, not the accomplishment itself, but the journey to get there. Why are we so afraid of the journey? It isn't the final outcome that stops us, it's the journey. If we don't look at the outcome other than the initial visualization in order to PLAN for it, then we can just enjoy the adventure of the path that leads us there. We need to redirect our thinking from reaching a goal, to MAKING A PLAN to reach the goal, then following it. THAT'S the fun part!!! Do I really think I'm going to stop after 30 days? I may... I may not. I don't know that part yet.

In the meantime, I'm just enjoying my journey, and all the joys that come with it.